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| wow, i miss this blog terribly.
This space has so many good and bad memories and tumblr's just getting boring to me. I can't express myself in words. I don't like tumblr. There, I've said it. Maybe I should start a new space where I can actually post my ramblings on.
A part of me wants so badly to revive this space. Maybe I should.
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| well, poly life is... REALLY SLACK. as of now at least! hahah i'm really enjoying school at the moment but i know its probably not gonna be so slack for long. first week, most of the time is spent introducing ourselves and then like staring at the computer screen. time always passes really quickly when i'm using the com!
so started the day at 9am with webgra hahah some of us couldn't find the class so we ended up a little late for class today. but the class was quite slack, we learnt how to use photoshop and it was mostly the basics and like layers and brushes only. 3 hours passed quite fast la.
then 2 hour break.. i think 2 hours is really quite a long time. i really need to start finding things to do man. hahah we went to eat, i went to eat.. then went to convention centre. nothing much to do la.
locvdp was slack too. spent an hour introducing ourselves, then like 20mins going for teabreak, then the rest of the time was spent looking at a slideshow as well as playing with the video camera and filming some random stuff. hahaha
after that met yenhua, then went for volleyball hahahahah ok people reading this don't laugh i know the mental images are fucking hilarious, but shut up! eh it wasn't as bad as i expected ok i can actually hit the ball. hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha but end so late, i lazy to join. plus i only got home at like 930 or something and my hair's still wet): its gonna take so long to dry.
school starts at 11 tomorrow and i have a full day of lectures. 6 hours of lectures. hahah nap time maybe? watch my shows? photobooth? smuggle food in? HAHAHAH
ok i'm finally hungry today.
and i'm sleepy already, i woke up at the same time as my brother today, and he's in SECONDARY SCHOOL which starts at a normal secondary sch starting time.won't sleep too late tonight i'm guessing!
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| my life kinda sucks at the moment. why? cause firstly, i'm school/class sick. secondly, i don't want to conform to the standards. thirdly, MY HAIR SUCKS.
i never thought i'd miss sc this much. there's so much about sc that you can't find anywhere else. the culture, the way we sc girls speak, the teachers etc. i just can't snap out of 10 years of sc culture that's been inculcated in me. meeting mrs fern yesterday at ion really reminded me of how awesome sc teachers are(with the exception of a certain mrs m, who all you DY girls hate too). when you're there, you hate the teachers, but when you leave, you realise how amazing they actually are. and the sad thing is, its too late! JUNIORS READING THIS: PLEASE TREASURE YOUR TIME IN SC OK. YOU ARE NOT GONNA FIND ANYTHING LIKE THAT ANYWHERE ELSE ONCE YOU'VE GRADUATED. i'm reluctant to begin this new chapter of my life..
and also, i don't want to conform. i know that i need to in order to fit in and to make good friends and make life more enjoyable for myself, but i'm reluctant. i really don't want to. i can't blog explicitly about this matter here cause its sensitive. i'm sure some people know what i mean. sc girls in poly... ahhhhh you guys prolly know roughly how i feel.
MY. HAIR. SUCKS.
i totally detest this thing that's growing out of my head right now.
its really disgusting. i don't know if its just gross cause the dude overloaded hair products, or if it just sucks period. its damn curly and i have the wet look. like you know the kind that you see on old ah mahs and aunties at the market! yes. that. my grandma says its nice. that just proves my point further doesn't it? I WANT TO WASH MY HAIR NOW BUT I CAN'T I CAN ONLY WASH IT ON MONDAY SO I HAVE TO GO TO CHURCH LOOKING ALL HIDEOUS AND SHIT. i want to die.
why does my life suck so much??????? i really hate how late my timetable ends everyday. no life. ahhhhh! my life so miserable, why is it so miserable?? this is an annoying post to read, i know. its a rant. i need to rant. my life sucks too much i need to rant and get it out of my system.
HOW AM I GONNA SLEEP WITH DISGUSTING PRODUCT SPAMMED HAIR ALL AROUND MY FACE?! damn disgusting. i'm gonna send my pillowcase for washing when i wash my hair. yuck yuck yuck.
AND S&W ON FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL.
WHY DO WE HAVE PE ON THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL?!
SUCKS.
oh and i'm not usually a messy eater, but somehow when i'm using my macbook, i'm always a messy eater. that's why my macbook's so ant infested. what the fuck lah. i got honey mustard all over my keyboard just now, hahahahahahahaha.
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| i wouldn't say that i hate school, its just that i haven't really been able to settle down as well as i hoped. school hasn't officially started yet, but we've had camps and activities and i really don't feel like i fit in very well. i'm not gonna be like that girl and say that NP's infested with nsks or whatever she blogged about. its not about that at all actually. its just that where i came from and where i am right now, its really different. its kinda two different worlds. i am not saying that one is superior to the other or that one is inferior to the other, i'm just stating that its really different from what i'm used to, ten years of being in an all girls school. ten years of being in scgs. everything's just really different and everyone's just really different. the culture is different and on a social level, i don't know what's going on anymore.
i'm so used to being that girl with the inside info and all the latest gossip and all.. but right now the people that the masses are talking about are just unheard of. like i've never heard of them ever in my entire life. the circle of people is different, i feel like i'm caught between the two different circles right now. its really two different tiers of the social ladder. so different. and its really funny to see the people who didn't fit in as well in secondary school fit in so well now. they're the ones who can mix with the people and those who were kinda more sociable in secondary school have taken a back seat and kinda aren't mixing too well.
i don't hate poly. i know its too early to judge anything really and i may ultimately end up loving it there. who knows, i may fit in eventually and immerse myself completely in that social circle. no one knows what's going to happen. i guess i'll just have to embrace everything that comes my way and have a open mind about everything. it'll be less miserable that way right?
another thing: he's so cute):
how?
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